Miracle at Bali

It was a beautiful and speechless sunset on Christmas Eve, 24th Dec 2014.
A gentle man smiled at me tenderly and encouraged me step forward for sunset shots.
My seat in the lounge was about 10 steps behind him. He drank his beer slowly but didn't take any photos. I couldn't help to take a photo from my seat. I would like to send him but not sure if it's too abrupt.
I thought it was just another solo trip before he came to me.
I got a huge courage and showed him my photo which he was a part of the picture, then asked his email for sending that photo. He said he didn't take any device with him on his vacation. So we just had a short chatting before he left the lounge.

The reason I stayed at the hotel one night just because I didn't want to stay alone on Christmas Eve. I would like to feel some cheerful atmosphere. I told him I would move to a villa on the second day.

The morning of Christmas I saw him having his breakfast alone. A "Hi" with a smile between each other. I didn't dare to share his table so just found another table for myself. Suddenly he came to me and asked if I knew where was my villa situated. Then coming a short chatting and asked me the night out for dinner.
"Why not?" came from my inner voice."He seems a good man."  "It's good to have a companion on Christmas."
So I accepted the invitation even we didn't exchange our name each other.

Everything seems alright and easy to stay with him, and everything goes so fast and feels so right. Which he said " We never knew it" I called that as "FATE". How could we make sure and tell " It's him" or "It's her" in the crowds. And what a good luck and gift we had found each other!

It was never easy to manage a distance relationship. He just showed me his firm wills and comfort me" we will figure out".

"Let's see where it will go?"  He said......


Issues In These Days

Here I am is my last station of this business trip, Donguan, China. Where our factory is outside the downtown. As people well known that security issue always exists in this city, we won't go far from the hotel we stay. So I got more silent hours playing with myself.
Our team has lacked of manpower for a long time. Though there is 1/3 new staffs in my team, they still make these audit projects successfully proceeded. I knew the experienced staffs felt heavy loading but I got no helpful solution for them. They counted themselves and did their best. They all sacrificed their time with their families during this trip. I profoundly felt grateful to all of them and thanks God to give me these good staffs.
More 3 days, we are going to our hometown. I almost can imagine how difficult the following jobs will be, the expectation of upper management, the effective coaching on new staffs, the deficiency of resources, the uncompleted works,...etc. Those issues all test my will and patience. However, there seems no way to escape and no time to make daydream.
So guess what! To survive myself in such hard issues, some days I just released my pressure by eating and sleep, and it worked sometime.


Negative Emotion

Have you ever the experience that you had paid a lot of efforts but somehow you got only critical comments? Two days ago, I felt frustrated by such situation, and moreover, I hated I couldn't control my tears rolling down eventually. I felt stressed, weak, tired and confused. I almost got crushed by a series of top-down instructions. I questiond myself if I should keep moving on the way I chosed?

The new boss wondered why I had the irregular reaction. According to his saying, this was his style of communication called as "brain storming". As for my personal opinion, I really don't appreciate such critical attitude. I think it's not appropriate to judge others in a picky tone, especially at the first meeting without any understanding base between.

I felt deeply down but need to force myself to face the upcoming difficuties. Now I'm trying to pick up my confidence and courage. I think I shouldn't be beaten off just at the first round. I would be a loser if I run away from this examination.

Here is the quotaion to encourage myself. (from Living Life Fully)

The key to cherishing yourself is recognizing that you are valuable, lovable and definitely worth being cherished. Once you are ready to make this decision for yourself, you will discover an inner confidence that was trapped just behind your fears. ~by Michelle Morris-Spieker


Hi Apa kabar, Jakarta

I had kept my blog blank for quite a long period. There was no special reason just without inspiration to write. I asked myself not to be sunk by those anonymous stuff and feelings. Sometimes to keep busy was the good therapy to put myself in the status of "HAPPINESS". Well, try to imagine, if you had spent out of your energy during the daytime, how could you have power left to fight with the inner voice?

It's the last night of my first bisiness trip in 2011. I'm in Jakarta. I had been trying to keep my mood in balance these days. Since this place was always connected with my heart in some way, special friends and special memories. I would like to cherish every chance we meet and hold on the moments to share with those whom I care about. It's a pity that I only could stay 3 days this time and the departure is coming tomorrow. So here I would like to say "Selamat tinggle" (Goodbye) to those lovely friends.

I got some issues about forgiveness and giving these days. It was not so easy. I had been trying to learn and practice more about that. I knew I am not as smart as what I behaved actually. I still laughed loudly to hide my real feelings. Sometimes I almost persuade myself that I didn't care about those unpleasant stuff at all. I believe the saying that everything happened for a reason. So I think it's must be meaningful what I experienced. Maybe I don't know the real answer now, but I would learn something from these days eventually.


From 2010 to 2011, From Chaos to System

15 minutes later, we will move on to 2011. How can I let the moment be blank?

Looking back on the passing year, I had a lot of different experiences from the previous year, both in outer life and inner life. I tried to learn more to live at the moment. I took every unexpected thing as every single test. I remembred there were times I tried to escape from some dislikeful tasks but hardly succeeded. Though I ever doubted if I could handle them by myself, I found to face them was the only useful solution eventually. Step by step, I expected to win myself.

This chaostic 2010 year with many cruel and miserable disasters, with unusual climates. We are experiencing some dramatic changes in every aspect. I wish all the sad things would be stopped at the last moment of 2010.

Wow! Let's welcome the coming new year!! Sending my blessings to all of you....