Hi Apa kabar, Jakarta

I had kept my blog blank for quite a long period. There was no special reason just without inspiration to write. I asked myself not to be sunk by those anonymous stuff and feelings. Sometimes to keep busy was the good therapy to put myself in the status of "HAPPINESS". Well, try to imagine, if you had spent out of your energy during the daytime, how could you have power left to fight with the inner voice?

It's the last night of my first bisiness trip in 2011. I'm in Jakarta. I had been trying to keep my mood in balance these days. Since this place was always connected with my heart in some way, special friends and special memories. I would like to cherish every chance we meet and hold on the moments to share with those whom I care about. It's a pity that I only could stay 3 days this time and the departure is coming tomorrow. So here I would like to say "Selamat tinggle" (Goodbye) to those lovely friends.

I got some issues about forgiveness and giving these days. It was not so easy. I had been trying to learn and practice more about that. I knew I am not as smart as what I behaved actually. I still laughed loudly to hide my real feelings. Sometimes I almost persuade myself that I didn't care about those unpleasant stuff at all. I believe the saying that everything happened for a reason. So I think it's must be meaningful what I experienced. Maybe I don't know the real answer now, but I would learn something from these days eventually.

Wisdom of Life

I seem to be numbed by these regular schedules and same jobs. I became dull. I didn’t know what worth to write. I think I’m losing my sensibility. Were these days just too regular to be recorded? No, it’s definitely not correct. I had a charming tour to the beautiful islands of Taiwan, Panghu. I attended a good course about the skills of performance review. I am hunting new staffs for my team. However, some days I felt like a rock, hard and heavy. I felt lost and confused. I questioned myself again and again. Should I move on this way? Was what I persisted really what I wanted? Would I have the power and wisdom to solve the upcoming challenges? Guess what! I am still right here. I just let my brain run out of memory but do nothing. Maybe I am just a stupid guy to trouble myself.

I just saw a film-‘ The Good Heart’, acted by Paul Dano and Brian Cox. There was a meaningful metaphor said by a counselor toward a young man who committed suicide attempted, and I want to memorize here.
“Try to think life is a coconut. It’s hard outside. If you don’t have proper tools or knowhow, you would see it can be useless. But if you know how to open this, it’s juicy inside.
The key is not to keep the coconut yourself. Once you know how to open the coconut, you share the coconut with someone who has no coconut, then, you will understand what happiness is.”

In this competitive society, speed almost can win everything. People lose patience. We don’t like to wait and get behind. In Mathematics, we are taught a diagonal line is the shortest distance between two nonconsecutive vertices. But how about the principle applied in our life? Does it work we adopt the straight way to deal everything?

A friend sent me a story and gave me the good wisdom- The straight line may not be the shortest distance between two points. Sometimes we run out of our energy but only move on a little. We speed our steps from the beginning but fail to hold on till the last minute. How come? Do we take the wrong approach? I just know to pull a wagon on a rough road by “Z” line will save more power than the “straight” line.
So how about to extend our thinking! A narrow winding trail might lead us to a beautiful garden. And I think the key is to take time to live a life, to feel the land, to experience what we are gifted.

To Inspire Myself

These days I felt my mood stalled in the mud, hardly moved on. What happened? Actually no. There was nothing worse around me, but I lost energy and patience somehow. Some moments I got the thought to be frozen without feeling outside. Rationally I know such negative emotion shouldn't stay here too long.

A few days ago I read Katie's post "what inspires you?" Like a sound to wake me up. Currently to some extend, I almost stayed out of the real world. That doesn't mean I don't live in my ordinary days. I still did all my duties. I still acted as my role as usual. However, I felt empty inside. There are echos in my head, what I persue? what means to me? am I too anxious about those upcoming things and unrealized imagination?

Trying to improve the stalled status, I bought some flowers to cheer myself, I saw a lot of films to entend my narrow view point, I walked and walked for a long time just to observe people in the sreets. I read people's posts and hope to learn wisdom from them. I went to temples to wash off my hesitation toward my life, to search for strength, wisdom and peace.

People say "life can't be captured" and "life is too short to waste". It's so right, isn't it? But unavoidablly there are times and things we felt down and powerless.

How to reach the mood- "no border, just horizen, only freedom"? Is there a way to drop all the heavy loadings I bear? Well, there still need a lot of efforts to get myself out of the morass...

Fate? Or Just Coincidence?

There are times when we feel lonely, depressed and helpless in life, and there are always friends showing up and expressing their concerns on us, especially in such greeting seasons. This special year I got some good friends around and felt lucky to be blessed and concerned. Some are long time friends, some are coworkers, some we never met. I felt grateful for being supported by those considerate, kind and sweet friends.

Lately I met and heard of some coincidences. We are easily to be related to other social network between friends, like the connections in "Facebook", "Plaxo" or other networks. We met some old friends, and friends of our friends or coworkers who knew each other earlier or later than us. It's so wonderful, isn't it? Our social networks were extended naturally by these connections. For sure in some circumstances, we may reject their connection request if we chose staying alone or feel unsafe with them.

I like one of my friends lately said "everything happens for a reason". It might explain something in some way and someday. Things seldom come up to our expectations. It happens occasionally that the last person we don't want him to know or involve in our affairs, or the last thing we don't want it happen, but they will come to our life eventually. For me, I would like treat that as a test in my life. I want to see how God arrange everything. I hope myself to pass every single examination. The moment every option is open, and no decision would be made. I keep learning to listen my real voices inside and walking on the spiritual tempos.

Be A Good Person

I just watched a film-"World's Greatest Dad", acted by Robin Williams. It's a comedy with mamy humorous, sardonic and meaningful dialogues. These words attracted me to write down here and led me to question myself as well.

"Is it more important for me to be a good person? or to be thought of as a good person?

I got a little confused which means a lot to me?

I had no intension to please anyone around me, but I liked the feeling to be thought of as a good person. So that I might need to hide my real thoughts in front of them.

For a long time, I have being acted as a good daughter to my family, a responsible staff to my served institution, a considerate person to my colleagues. Are those my real personalities? Or what I did just because I didn't want to disappoint those people at all. Sometimes I felt pressured and tired to act as what people expected me supposed to be.

Well...what's your philosophy?

"Mr. LEFT"

"Mr.LEFT"? Yes, you are not "Mr.WRONG"! I would rather call you Mr.LEFT. Why say so? I think there was nobody wrong in this relationship, just because we are moving on different sides, the right for me and the left for you. If I make a list for 10 persons who had affected my life most, you would be one of them. You made me change my lifestyle, my learning, my views, and the definition of love.

Through a friend's visit a few days ago, I heard of your latest status going well. It's good for you. It had been over six months since our last real talk. These days there were some noises echoed in my head, and the frequency of those sounds increasing. I think the main cause is due to our next meeting is approaching more and more. It pushed me to write something here. Though I know very well you won't look my posts, but why bothers? I just want to record my present mood.

Fifty days more, we will meet again, before that, I really wish a chance to talk to you heart to heart. I still have no idea what you are thinking now. Friendship doesn't come easy, and we had been friends for years. It's the last thing I would do to give you any pressure. You could tell me if you thought this relatioship as a burden. What I have been waiting for is still silence. You never showed up and said something. I had ever tried several channels to reopen our conversation but all failed. What could I say? It's a long long distance to reach you, so no matter how you think or act, I indeed have no way to affect your life. Maybe you felt much safer in your own shell.

Here I paste some words from my reading and I wish you might see. If not, I hope we may frankly talk when we meet next time.

"I want and deserve a man who knows he wants to be with me.

If that's not you, I need to know, so I can move on."

Though in the deep of my heart I might guess and catch the answer, I still wish you could let your words spoken.

I think we will be alone eventually at the last second of our life, so before that sad moment I do hope both us will be lucky to keep sharing our life with our beloved, no matter whom the one will be. I can't deny there are some hesitations and struggles staying here. I also wonder if you ever thought of me and cared about our friendship. As people told me, it's dangerous to fall again in such a distant relatioship if lack of trust base. Now I am counting the days left, and buliding more strength inside to see the real YOU at that day.....

My Bucket List

Well...it's a very meaningful assignment for me, and this inspiration came from these two wonderful posts, "mountainmama's bucket list" and "starry eye's 10 Dreams to Realise b4 I Kick the Bucket". I don't know how they make those beautiful thoughts and dreams, but I would like to try my own.

I ever thought, if I only have a few months (or maybe less ) to live, is there anything I feel regetful about? anything I want to do but never did it? for sure, there should be. somehow, I am in a trance.

Here I go my bucket list before I am dying.

1. to meet true love and get older together.

2. to have a house in the country and live in a simple lifestyle.

3. to dispel my fear about water and learn how to swim.

4. to learn painting.

5. to accept any invitation for experiencing fresh and good stuff.

6. to travel as possible as I can- with enough time, bugdet and good health.

7. to enjoy life with a good partner, my family and old friends.

8. to have my own coffee shop where people may release themselves.

9. to write down my life, my feeling, my fantasy till the last momet.

10. to train myself to stay in real peaceful and harmonic mindset if I failed in making dreams come true.

And here's what I have done that makes me feel good about my spiritual land and real life.

1. I made efforts on my career and got physical returns to clear my financial burden.

2. I started my blogging life since this July. It led me through a brand-new space, knowing many friends and fulfilled my boring life. Meanwhile, I have been trying to improve my poor English through writing.

3. This year I had trips to some destinations where I had never been.

4. I experienced an unforgettable relationship this year, from sweetness to bitterness. But I also learn how to do self-healing, to love myself more, and to enjoy life in time.

5. I learn how to make cookies and cakes. I like to share those desserts with my friends.

So far, I am still thinking what I want? anything I will regret if not doing? As time goes by and I am getting older, my bucket list might be revised again and again. But I think it's OK. It will mean I have different expectation and more dreams toward life. Moreover, those dreams of the list will be good drivers for changing my ordinary life.

My Movie Day

Today I did one thing I never did before. I took my annual leave this afternoon and went to two movies, "Love Happens" and "2012", plus, alone. It's not holiday but still took some time to buy tickets. I observed most people came to see "2012". So by my curiosity and a perfect interval between these two movies, I allowed myself being crazy once.

About "Love Happens", I think it 's not only a love movie but also delivered how to make healing. No matter how we pretend being well in front of people, if we didn't lay down the mental burdens, we won't get the real happiness and peace. To face what we ever lost takes time, and to overcome the fear needs courage. If we couldn't control our emotion well, the worst we might lose our mind and what we have.

About "2012", I had a brief conclusion. If all things came to the same ending one day, whether the Maya's prediction is true or not, why we used to concern the future instead of the present? why we not to squeeze the moment and cherish those who around you? why need to care so much those which we hardly possess of? why we often adopt complaint instead of construction?

Here I also gain a common point from these two films-to keep the faith, to believe we can make it, to persist till the last minutes, to try what we can do, then everything will be possible. Like the saying " where there is a will, there is a way." What do you think?

Question Myself

No news for this weekend. The sunshine finally went through the heavy clouds. I like the cool and sunny day. I didn't go far and just walked around in the neighborhood of my house. I felt comfortable while the breeze brushing my hair. Like the other weeks, I did a lot of laundries and housework after a whole week of working days.

The major task for me in the 4th quarter is the budget preparation for the next year. By this year end, about 80% of our project plans will be confirmed. It means I almost know how tight my schedule will be for the coming year. In some way I might feel upset because I will get more responsibility and challenges. Some places I never visited in the past projects. I am not sure if I could make that succeed.

A few weeks ago I read the quote from mountainmama's blog,

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.

~Marie Curie

I think it would be a good reminder for me to dispel my doubts and fears for facing the uncertainty. In addition, I need make more efforts and spiritual construction before I go for the new area.

Sometimes I felt so lucky to get more chances for traveling than others, though most of them were due to my job required. Those travels did give me different views and growth for life. No matter where to go and what to experience, it will be only a part of my life journey. As the author, Stephen Covey, stating "the 90/10 Principle",

10% of life is made up of what happens to you.
90% of life is decided by how you react…

So... why I need to worry about the 10% of uncontrollable life?

秋．散戲

行道樹依舊翠綠，在這個城市，要能體會到"一葉知秋"似乎是不容易的。從薄毛衫添上身的那刻，才稍稍覺得有秋的味道。 我喜歡這個季節，帶點浪漫的詩人氣息，可惜這兒的氣候，四季不是那麼分明，"秋"的停留往往短暫得讓人來不及駐足欣賞.

經歷了這個夏天熾熱、過度燃燒的激情，我想，這是個適合"悼念"儀式的季節，所有不開心的、傷痛的、不平的、遺憾的．．．都該在這個時候告別。或許，待冬季沉澱過後，來年的春又將會有新的輪迴。

突然有股悠然又惆悵的情懷蔓延著，很想很想讀讀席慕蓉的詩：

『散戲　　　　(1982.10.30)

　讓我們　再回到那 最起初最起初的寂寞吧
　讓我們　用長長的 並且極為平凡的一生 來做一個證明
　讓所有好奇好熱鬧的人群 都覺得無聊和無趣

　讓一直煩擾著我們的 等著看精彩結局的觀眾 都紛紛退票　頹然散去
　

　這樣　才能回復到 最起初最起初的寂寞吧
　到那個時候　舞臺上 將只剩下一座空山 山中將空無一人

　只有 好風好日　鳥喧花靜

　到那個時候 白髮的流浪者啊　請你 請你佇足靜聽
　在風裡雲裡　遠遠地 互相傳呼著的

　是我們不再困惑的 年輕而熱烈的聲音』

Clearing Useless Stuffs

This weekend was a cloudy and rainy day. My mood was a bit affected and stuck by the weather. After staying for half a day, I decided to step out for 'hunting'. By a chance, I walked in a bookstore. I felt fresh for a while when I found new stuffs-memo papers and notebooks with cute cartoons. I hadn't spent much time outdoors since it's very wet outside.

For a moment, I didn't know why I was so blue for the whole weekend. Though I enjoyed the silent hours but I didn't like the anonymous emotion came. To drive out the unwelcome feeling, I chose to watch a comedy- 'The Proposal", acted by Ryan Reynolds and Sandra Bullock.

I don't know how about your way , but it works that those simple things always can bring me simple happiness. It's an easy approach to expel the pressure from me.

I guessed there should be some useless stuffs on my mind, and I had to take actions for cleaning up. It had been a long time since I rearranged the layout of my room last. I thought it would be a good timing for making change as well as brushing my blue mood. Trying to dispose of some useless stuffs, I was getting delighted whenever throwing one away.

Later, I will continue my cleaning job...both for environment and spiritual land...

Next Station, Happiness

Lately I paid a lot of efforts on movie making by disposing some photos and music. I felt like to find a new pleasure park for my heart. I enjoy the peaceful mood while concentrating on my movie project.

Time to the fourth quarter, many friends looked like more busy and impatient. These words just came to my mind when I walked on my way home tonight-'Next station, happiness'. If there is a real station named 'Happiness', I think most of us would pay for the ticket. I believe that indeed exists in our own mind and everyone has his unique approach to 'Happiness'.

In most circumstances, sometimes we made us breathless just because we gave too much pressure on ourselves. One of my friends told me she felt unhappy. As I knew she alway set some standards and targets for herself. These days she might get to the bottle neck for work and feel powerless for her current status.

What about your approach if you fell into the same situation?

I think it's good to keep us walking on the right way to our goals, but never push ourselves too much whenever the things went out of our expectation. Ask yourself what you want? Had you done your best? If yes, just let it passed. You still have time and another new chance to make it better. It means you have the oppertunity and space for improvement. More reference for you, there are many dimensions of our lif. We shouldn't overemphasize any of them, unless it's our choice for our own happiness.

For releasing the unpleasant mood, I usually take a deep breathe, then to do something interesting. Maybe a cup of coffee, a comedy, a slow walk, reading or chatting, it would be useful to transfer my focus to a light mood. Here I share a fantastic idea for you.

Imaging....

"You were shipping in the sea. Soft wind blowing. You got your tempos to enjoy the melody of sea waves...."

Well, could you feel that?

Art Of Rejection

Did you have the experience that you want to be alone for deliberation, but you might be interrupted by unexpected things? such as a market research call, noise pollution, friend's visit, or any kind of invitation. What will you react then? I think most people would get impatient at the first moment. For sure, I am not exceptional. Sometimes I would felt sorry for my first reaction. To feel for others, they might really need our supports at that time, but were unfortunatly rejected by us.

Words are arts and tough lessons. I know I'm not capable of all hard works or requests, so it indeed happened that I had to say "NO" to others sometimes. Although using words improperly might be hurt to others, my basic principle is never promise others what over my capability. Once you promise but fail to do, it might hurt others more than your first rejection.

In another situation, for those people always used to ask for other's help, you might have a soft heart to give him a hand occasionally but coudn't be his hands all the time, right? So don't feel embarrassed to say "NO", just remember to give him a chance for helping himself and growing up.

Words could be miracle and healing. In the other way, if we can give others our hands easily and willingly, never be stingy to express our kindness and consideration. I believe good people will always be blessed.

Be Kind . Be Good

I heard of some friends suffering from illness today. Many sorrows came to my mind. I wish they will soon overcome the hard work with all resources and great courage.

Meanwhile, I also had an introspection on myself. As the same age of people, I should be grateful to God for my good health. I think God give everyone at least a tough issue in his life. Some met bottle neck in career, some fell in unpleasant marriage or relationship, some got sick and some worried all they thought. It seems we all have different issues to learn and conquer. Some can pass through but some might quit in the half way.

I am not sure if you believe the saying of transmigration of the soul in Buddhism. Whenever I met something unfair or horrible, I would have a dialogue with myself- Perhaps I was not good in the past or the previous life so that gave me the test and the chance to learn. I think what we done to others will pay back to ourselves someday. Through some actual cases and my past experience, it's indeed a small world and we might meet each other somewhere occasionally. So do good things and try to be kind to others as possible as we can.

Attitude Toward Problem-Solving

I think you would agree to me that each one has his own way toward problem-solving. It might depend on his growing background, character, age, experience, etc. I was asked to find some old pictures of my school days last night, and glanced an article I ever wrote for a past relationship with my first love. Here I found a common point that I was attracted by the same kind of men in their character. Both two almost had the same behavior model when facing problems-stalling, keeping silence, then disappearance. I was annoyed at the similar situations and felt powerless.

I also had a brief observation on myself that I always falled in a relationship too deep to pull out. I was always the person who paid more attention and consideration than the other. How come? Perhaps because I am the eldest sister in my family and I used to take care of the others, even in my office now, I also act the same role among my colleagues. Should it be my destiny? I refuse to accept that. In the deepest part of my heart, I still eager to be the person cared and cherished by others. That's the main reason I dedicated myself too much whenever I got some consideration and kindness from others.

I am such a woman easily touched by the other's tenderness, and I think standing too reasonable would kill the romance. In my personal philosophy, I like the straight way to express my thoughts and feelings and hate to be a sly guy. I believe and expect we will get mature with age. Knowing well there is no way to enforce the others to deal with things as the same way as I do, I need learn to step out more cautiously and be the master of my own life. Unavoidablely it might hurt me again, but I would rather keep the real part of me and stay in the truth. In some way, those events indeed had taught me a lots.

Four Grades of Concession

Just read an article " Concession would make more progress"(讓步, 才會更進步), writen by one of my favorite authors-吳若權. In which I mostly like the section of concession art in four grades.

-1st grade of concession, to treat the other with high respect.(禮遇)

-2nd grade of concession, to support and agree to the other's thinking and doing.(支持)

-3rd grade of concession, to tolerate and forgive the other's mistake and give a new chance to make up.(包容)

-4th grade of concession, to accomplish the other's happiness, to let the relationship go when his/her heart not in it.(成全)

Actually it's not easy to put those above into practice, especially for the one who paid much more in a relationship. Since we couldn't put all our expectation on the other's shoulder and make him/her change mind, we need to find a way to comfort ourselves. I remind of the words from my recent reading that I decide my own way to happiness. So far, I'm still learning to be a smart guy along the road I chose.

Bodhisattva Of Adversity

I got a meaningful article from a friend's sharing today. The topic is "Bodhisattva Of Adversity" (逆境菩薩). The story stated a man had changed twelve jobs in ten years. You won't believe the same reason for his leaving was those companies going out of business. When he applied a new job, the head proctor didn't think he would have a chance to compete with the other candidates.

The man said , "I understood very much that 12 companies, I tried hard to save them with my colleagues, although it failed, but I knew each detail of those mistakes and defeats, and learn a lot from those experiences. Not everyone had the chance to learn that. Many people only pursue for success, but I, have the experience to avoid the mistake and the defeat! ......"
“I knew most of successful experience were similar, easy to imitate, but the reason of defeat actually different in each case. With ten-year study on successful experience, was inferior that with the similar time on experiencing mistakes and defeats. Could learn more and more profoundly. I believed that others' successful experience is very difficult to become our wealth, but others' defeat process is actually our precious wealth!”

How would you say that? I extracted some good view points here and my understanding for sharing.
Not only our enemy or the bad circumstance will defeat us. Sometimes the most intimate persons would hurt us deeply indeed. It's easier to forgive the enemy than our family or best friends. Those who gave us pain, failure, sadness and hurt are called "Bodhisattva Of Adversity" in Buddhism. They are the best gifts from God. Those unforgetable experience will help us to grow up and cherish the good things in our life. We may say that it's also a certain kind of inspiration in some way.

Learn to be thankful to them and smile at every test. Toast to the adversity and those who gave us tough issues in our life. Through that, we might feel the sunshine more beautiful than ever, and connect to the better future. It's not easy to do. But I would like to make this as a start.

Ready To Fly Again

I'm going to take a business trip for 3 weeks from tomorrow. Plan to visit 5 cities in China this time. I have been traveling for work over the years, so that gave me many experiences on packing my luggage. In some way, I feel nervous but expectant in each trip. There are uncertainties and challenges in the way. No idea when or where to flame up.

Some morning I woke up and forgot where I was. I ever thought to improve such an unstable status by changing job, however, my current job is the outcome from my last decision. It seemed to be my destiny to work by travel and travel. Things become easier since I adjust my resistant mindset. Now I am more comfortable to accept and enjoy such kind of jobs while taking them as adventure. Though something uncontrollable, I have full of power to decide how and where to lay down my heart.

For brushing the heavy mood, I choose a new bag for this trip. Hope to bring myself a pleasant, smooth, and abundant journey. Finished my packing, I am ready to fly away and see a new horizon in my way. After then, another special memory will be created....

Power Of Imagination

This week I did some shopping for releasing my stress. Maybe you will ask : did it work? Well, it should be. I really please myself in some way to change my styling, but still feel lost when I'm alone. Some nights anonymous emotion came across my mind and brought sorrows.

So far I couldn't listen to the love songs he ever shared. Those beat my heart badly and let me hardly breath throughtout the night.

I know very well it's not helpful to rescue a hurt soul at all, and I think you would understand how hard the job I'm trying my best to do. I need ask for help from TIME. I invite my imagination to take place of the sadness. I picture myself as an easy-going lady, with a pair of small eyes wearing laughters, and enjoy life without any burden. How nice the feeling! I may gain some power from the imagination, as a spiritual talk to myself.

The moment I low my head and keep writing my ordinary days. Sun still shining, life still going on. Got some soft music as remedy. I look at what I have instead of focusing those don't belong to me, and let go what I can't hold. Just left the past stay behind, I will fly forward.

過客

那個道別說來瀟灑, 卻是個隱隱作疼的不捨. 不知道你能不能懂, 想用力在灰濛濛的心刷上粉紅色的感覺? 來回塗上好幾次了, 還是隱約透著一層迷霧. 思緒理得很清楚, 情感卻是沉沒在靜夜的暗潮. 這樣的疼, 還要多久? 說實在的, 自己也沒底. 近來忙碌的節奏, 勉強算是一帖療方, 可惜葯效不長, 我想...心頭上的那個缺口, 還需要多一些時間才能密合吧! 偶爾也會有綺想, 是不是能閉上眼, 讓時光像跳針的老唱盤, 略過令人窒息的這一段.

常聽到 "有捨、才有得" 吧? 面對周遭的人事物, 又能做到幾分的 "捨、得" 呢? 無奈的是面臨選擇的當下, 往往是處在不得不的情境裏. 當然啦, 你還是自己生命的主宰者, 可以決定自己的去路. 向左走? 或向右走? 一念間, 看到的風景截然不同, 情節可以有不同的發展, 至於是好? 是壞? 得由身歷其境的那人才能說得明白. 心想著: 如果回溯到過去的某一刻, 會不會有不同的選擇? 戲如人生, 令人不滿意結局的劇本可以重寫, 人生如戲, 經歷過任何一段卻是沒有機會回頭. 我想, 重要的是在這過程的經驗和領會真的成長了. 或許這一回合我輸了, 也要輸得坦然自在. 下一輪, 期許自己要能更圓熟的面對試煉.

請容我放縱這沒來由的痴, 想藉著鄭愁予的"錯誤"延伸那段美麗又失落的日子:

　我打江南走過, 那等在季節裡的容顏如蓮花的開落

　東風不來, 三月的柳絮不飛, 你的心如小小的寂寞的城, 恰若青石的街道向晚

　跫音不響，三月的春帷不揭, 你的心是小小的窗扉緊掩,

　我達達的馬蹄是美麗的錯誤, 我不是歸人, 是個過客...

佇立在候車站牌的行人道上, 我不禁想著....擦身而過的路人, 個個有著說不完的故事和難解的習題. 而我, 也不過是那些路人眼中的路人罷了. 我沒有小叮噹的任意門, 沒法來去自如, 既然時光不會暫停, 明天太陽依然升起, 我還是我, 那麼..再難捱的日子, 笑一笑, 也就過去了....