From 2010 to 2011, From Chaos to System

15 minutes later, we will move on to 2011. How can I let the moment be blank?

Looking back on the passing year, I had a lot of different experiences from the previous year, both in outer life and inner life. I tried to learn more to live at the moment. I took every unexpected thing as every single test. I remembred there were times I tried to escape from some dislikeful tasks but hardly succeeded. Though I ever doubted if I could handle them by myself, I found to face them was the only useful solution eventually. Step by step, I expected to win myself.

This chaostic 2010 year with many cruel and miserable disasters, with unusual climates. We are experiencing some dramatic changes in every aspect. I wish all the sad things would be stopped at the last moment of 2010.

Wow! Let's welcome the coming new year!! Sending my blessings to all of you....

Wisdom of Life

I seem to be numbed by these regular schedules and same jobs. I became dull. I didn’t know what worth to write. I think I’m losing my sensibility. Were these days just too regular to be recorded? No, it’s definitely not correct. I had a charming tour to the beautiful islands of Taiwan, Panghu. I attended a good course about the skills of performance review. I am hunting new staffs for my team. However, some days I felt like a rock, hard and heavy. I felt lost and confused. I questioned myself again and again. Should I move on this way? Was what I persisted really what I wanted? Would I have the power and wisdom to solve the upcoming challenges? Guess what! I am still right here. I just let my brain run out of memory but do nothing. Maybe I am just a stupid guy to trouble myself.

I just saw a film-‘ The Good Heart’, acted by Paul Dano and Brian Cox. There was a meaningful metaphor said by a counselor toward a young man who committed suicide attempted, and I want to memorize here.
“Try to think life is a coconut. It’s hard outside. If you don’t have proper tools or knowhow, you would see it can be useless. But if you know how to open this, it’s juicy inside.
The key is not to keep the coconut yourself. Once you know how to open the coconut, you share the coconut with someone who has no coconut, then, you will understand what happiness is.”

In this competitive society, speed almost can win everything. People lose patience. We don’t like to wait and get behind. In Mathematics, we are taught a diagonal line is the shortest distance between two nonconsecutive vertices. But how about the principle applied in our life? Does it work we adopt the straight way to deal everything?

A friend sent me a story and gave me the good wisdom- The straight line may not be the shortest distance between two points. Sometimes we run out of our energy but only move on a little. We speed our steps from the beginning but fail to hold on till the last minute. How come? Do we take the wrong approach? I just know to pull a wagon on a rough road by “Z” line will save more power than the “straight” line.
So how about to extend our thinking! A narrow winding trail might lead us to a beautiful garden. And I think the key is to take time to live a life, to feel the land, to experience what we are gifted.

Just Do It, Just In Time

Some days I felt confused and didn’t know how the time passed so soon. Some days I wonder what we are busy for. Then, what will you do or find something to support you to keep moving on? Have you ever thought what our mission ought to be in this life?

I just heard of an elder lady got cancer yesterday. As my mom told me, she almost dedicated herself to her family and work. But she never paid attention to her health. She ignored a several signs of her illness. She was overloaded with works and works. She thought she just got tired. Who would think of such thing happened on one’s prime of life? No one could accept the bad news as the doctor announced how many days she left.

I ever saw and knew most parents work hard through their lives but seldom spend money for themselves. What they do and concern is all about their children. So did this ill lady. She seemed never let herself to enjoy her life. I thought the best change was her two children became responsible after she got sick. It’s indeed a cruel lesson for all.

A friend sent me one story a few weeks ago. There was a man who never stopped his steps in his world. One day a wisdom finally caught up with him and asked why he always rushed to somewhere, he answered the death kept in step with him, so he ran fast to leave the death behind. The wisdom then asked, why did you think that way instead of the death should be in front of you? Why didn’t you just slow down to feel and enjoy every moment you have?

How about your views from the metaphor of this story? And then what would you make changes in your own world?
These days I have a few rough thoughts. Everyday we rush here and there. We race against time. Some days we lived without any focus and lost our faith. Could we just sit for a while to feel a peaceful moment? Could we just treat ourselves generously while healthy? Could we be a bit selfish and willful sometimes to care more about ourselves? It seems easy but actually not for some people.

Outing to Upstream Walking

Last weekend I had a brand new experience for outing-upstream walking. I thought it should be an easy tour but actually not. It was a tough challenge for me. I couldn't relax in the steram while floating. Since I almost can't swim, I still felt afraid while walking in the deeper water areas even I had worn a life vest. However, it was really an unforgettable memory in my life.

For a long time I couldn't conquer my fear in the water. I felt suffocated when my body against the water pressure. I remembered I attended the swimming course in my school days. I was shouted by the coach many times and asked me " where were you going" since I couldn't relax and swam straightly.

I didn't attend the second day of this outing after experienced the previous tough schedule. I simply sat beside the beautiful stream, chatting with some friends and watching the kids playing and jumping. I envied those little good swimmers. They looked so naturally and enjoyable.

At the end of July, two staffs resigned. The same reasons of their resignation was they didn't want to do auditing through their whole life. Well, I admired their courage to quit. I think I won't have their determination even if I were in their age. I will bless them to meet their ideal career.

I am thinking that life is like swimming. It needs balance all the time. Once we lost the balance, we would feel uncomfortable and even sunk by the pressure from all aspects of life. For me to keep a balanced life is a constantly learning course as same as swimming.

SPA Program on Body and Soul

After a whole week of conducting audit in our factory, I decided to take a good rest in last weekend. I became material in some ways. I went shopping and had a good meal. Moreover, yesterday I had a SPA program. Compared with the programs I ever had in Bali and China, that was another fresh experience for me. I felt relaxed to be served as a queen in my country.

I had kept finding ways to balance my life for a long time. I want to enjoy the real life. I told myself to treat myself kindly. I take every chance for trips with my old friends. I practice Qi-gong healing my body and soul. I would like to explore myself to see how much I can do and how far I may go.

Unavoidablely there are some nights I feel lonely and empty. I still think about the love I lost and couldn't figure it out why. Yes, I might too persist in that relationship, but that doesn't mean I don't step out of my room. I believe good wills would attract good people and positive energy. I believe everything is possible once I try my best. I think I am practicing to live more in the moment.

SET FREE

I had a bicycle trip last weekend to eastern Taiwan, Hwalian. I had rode about 29 miles in two days. For me, it's kind of a challenge to myself. I ever had the thought to abandon in transit, but I kept going on by my will till the last minute. And, I am glad I had finished the whole route. While riding on the country road, I felt so free, like every unwelcome stuff behind of me. That was extremely hot and I got tanned on my skin as a harvest.

When did you set yourself free from your busy days last? My lately life seems blindly busy and busy. I couldn't proceed my scheduled works by unexpected interruptions every working day. That caused me to keep working during my weekends. Actually I can't complain any more since people around look my job as a great one. Even I thought several times to drop my current duties, I am still here. I didn't mean I don't like my job, but I truely hate to be bound by any position or title. I think it's too pressured for me to hand over.

Yesterday, July 3, was the first anniversary for my blog. Here I have to confess I get tired and ingore to maintain it these days. I felt stalled to feel, think and write. Maybe I was burn by the heavy sun. I must pick up my energy like my fighting spirit on riding bicycles.

Why Bothering?

I had a few experiences in the past week. Some awful, some sad and some pleasant. These days made me exhausted not in my physical body but in my spirit.

Event #1, funeral
I attended a funeral for my aunt. At the end of that day, a thought came acrossed my mind, no matter how our beautiful days or hard days ever existed, all lives will be ended at the same destination, sooner or later. And then I started to think my issues,
What I have been searching for? What's my mission in this life?
Am I moving on the right way toward my destination?
When should I drop my persistence if I lost my faith on the way I chosed?
Well...the thing really gave me a strike on my head. I don't have the right answers about the above issues. But I try to tak a different look when I met unpleasant things.

Event#2, shortage of human resources
I was asked to compromise on the job assignment for one of my staffs, though I had tried to state how we pull our resources among projects. I felt much pressured and offended by the in-charge of the operating unit. I tried to settle the different view points between us but failed. No good communication but only one-way listening.
Finally I supposed his behavior probably due to the pressure from his management, so we ended the conversation. I'm not good at dealing such argument. I hate to wear a mask in front of people.
However, for the good sake of my staff to avoid him isolated by the group where he dedicates, I need to adjust my plan for the following projects. Anyway, a right decision is not eaqual to a good decision. Sometimes we have to give up the current "benefit" to achieve the long term "profit".

Event#3, a trip of pumpkin tunnel and water show
Yesterday was a hot weekend. The sun crazily danced during the day time. I joined a trip with my classmate to visit the pumpkin tunnels and water show. Except the trip route was not well arranged, that was a fresh experience for me.

明德水庫 水舞秀 Water Show

苗栗造橋金瓜傳奇-南瓜隧道 Pumpkin Tunnel

Relaxation

I'm home, staying at my small nest. The first weekend after my trip was rainy and rainy. I felt tired, so I stayed home and saw movies for the whole weekend.

Actually I feel so stuck. I think a lots but hardly to write down. Most of my thoughts are illogically. I feel heavy on my sholders. I know there are many tasks waiting for me, but I leave them all outstanding there.

All I want to do is doing nothing. Maybe you couldn't understand my style. But that's I called relaxation and the way to set myeslf free, like recharging the battery. Now come to my last program- some wine for myself.

Small Break from Pressure

Lately I saw the news about employees’ suicide of FOXCONN. People discussed the serial events a lot these days. I felt sorry about those who chose suicide to end their lives. But I couldn't figure out what serious difficulties caused such situations? Those people were so young. They should have good life if they took a different choice. Here I won’t judge if they chose a wrong way to solve their problems. But I ever approached some people who really thought the suicide is a better way to end their suffering. I think how to dispel their negative thoughts is a very important step and lead them to look more bright sides of their life. The FOXCONN management had taken some actions to stop such suicide happening again, and the local government stoped all the relative news published. I sincerely hope the sad things stopped there.

So far I have been traveling in China more than three weeks and completed three projects at my first station, Jiangyin, Jiangsu. (The city is located at the south side of the Yangtze River). Though the continuous field works made me exhausted, I felt fulfilled at works during this period. I made efforts on developing new methods to do analysis. I shared my skills with some colleagues. And my team had good communication with those whom were interviewed. Through these projects I saw the growth of my team. It was a truly good experience on teamwork.
This Wednesday I moved to my second station, Changshu, and stayed here for two nights. Soon I am going for the next city two hours later. The tight schedule of this travel made me a bit. Fortunately I may have a small break this weekend and meet with another project team. I plan to have a city tour and visit a friend couple dwelling there.

Life likes tides, sometimes up and sometimes down. I saw the Chairman of FOXCONN, Mr. Kao bowed his head for sorry. The thing taught me no one will always stands at the top. There are always a serial tests along our life way. We have duties and rights for our own life. And we also have many options when we need to make a choice. No matter good things or bad things, they will pass by and become a part of our memory eventually. So, I'm asking myself: I may not change the things ahead of me, but I have the power to control my mindset in a positive status.

Balance In Life

I have been traveling in China since May 5. It's not easy to access my blog and face book here. These days made me feel suffocated and stressed. The internet resources are seen as natural and citizens' rights in most countries, but not in China.

There were some personnel adjustments in our company during middle April, including mine. Much responsibility added. I had a great worry about that and felt pressured these days. Some nights sleeped not well. Though I knew it's no use to worry so much. Thanks for this travel to set me free from those bothersome stuff. I wish I may make good adjustment after this period.

Today is Mother's Day in my country. I remember I haven't given my time to my Mom for years due to my works. As aging I feel more and more sorry to her but can't speak it out. It seems normal people keep words unspoken especially in front of those close ones.

How to make balance in family, work and social relatioship? What to take more or to give up? When to do or not to do? Well...for me, it really needs a huge wisdom.

Feeling the Existence

It's a rainy Sunday, a wet city. I have stayed at home since I woke up this morning. It's a good time to spend more time with myself. Though I am not good at cooking, I can make some cookies and cakes. It has been a long time since I made dessert last. I found some excuses for my laziness. This weekend I pick up my energy and make dessert, almond cookies and brownie. Here are my jobs.

I felt great while concentrating on cooking. Before that I was a bit worry about my techic. I almost forgot the procedures. Fortunately I completed these jobs.

There were not much feeling to write these days. I am not sure if it's a good thing for me. I got endless works at office, and had no time to think what happened. However, the days keep going on, and it's my real and ordinary life. I still find time to walk around and hunting good stuff. Last Sunday I went to Dan-Shui Old Street. As usual, the place were filled with crowds. I noticed there some change since my last visit, street arts and new stores. I felt inspired and walked along some streets I had never been there.

Through I seriously observe the people around and read the latest news about earthquakes of China, I felt so lucky to live in the city. What a wonderful thing to exist in a safe place of the world. Here is a good quote for sharing and concluding my rough thoughts.

Slow down and take the time to really see. Take a momentto see what is going on around you right now, right whereyou are. You may be missing something wonderful.
~J. Michael Thomas

(from livinglifefully-dailymeditations)

Creative Ideas

Last weekend I went to a mountain town of in the Rueifang Township of Taipei County with our new China staffs. It's very convenient to visit the beautiful town by bus from Taipei downtown. About one hour later we arrived there. This mountain town is near sea, so my guests were very excited.

We ate the local famous snacks and visited the narrow roads. There are many creative small shops on the old streets.
Since it was a holiday weekend, crowds everywhere made me feel suffocated. Maybe next time I should choose another working day to visit there in slow tempos.

Have you ever seen a coffee shop on bicycle? Well , I saw it at Jioufen (九份). The scene attracted me very much in such an oldish mountain town. I had one cup of Mandheling coffee there and enjoyed that peaceful moment. I admire the young man's LAHOS lifestyle and creative business idea - a mobile coffee shop.

The young man answered the guests it's his interest to make coffee.

Adjustment

It has been a long while I didn't reach any blogs, including mine. Everyday was another busy day in March. Most things came out of my planning. However, I passed through a fulfilled period in many aspects. I had conducted a new industry auditing, a pleasant tour to Hwalian(eastern Taiwan), and became a apprentice of Tai Ji Men (太極門) on March 28. I got a lot of new experiences and knew many kind people. All these inspired me very much. I felt more peaceful inside than before.

March 20~21, I joined a tour of my classmate's company. We visited the tribe of Taiwan Indians in Hwalian. I like those pure minds and admire their spirits. They don't have enough resources, but they work very hard to build their dreams. I saw their simple happiness. I couldn't help myself to notice their beautiful faces.

I used to worry about the future before, to think and imagine what would come. I know the moment is the most important than everything but I fail to hold so often. Since I joined Tai Ji Men, the positive thinking of those senior apprentices impressed me very much.

We communicate heart to heart, encourage people through experience sharings. and learn the method to heal ourselves. I was told to love in time, to see and appreciate those whom we love and those who love us, to look every event as a test in life, to love ourselves to enable us to give our love.

Today is April Fool's Day. Some friends like to make jokes to fool people around. We can be a fool to be fooled just for fun, but hard to live our life as a simple "fool". Maybe it's not bad to be a fool in such a complicate world. Now I am thinking if I could be such a "fool" to give others without any expectation, to enjoy the simple happiness through giving.

Events Of March 14

Today, March 14, is celebrated as different events in the world, and it's also the daylight saving time begins. Wow! What a meaningful day! I fell grateful about the great mathematics. I feel romantic about White Day. And I want to toast to all the great mothers of United Kingdom. Well, just take your time enjoy your day as any kind of events, and send greetings to those ones you care and love.

Pi Day

Pi Day and Pi Approximation Day are two holidays held to celebrate the mathematical constant π (pi) (in the mm/dd date notation: 3/14); since 3, 1 and 4 are the first three digits of π. March 14 is also the birthday of Albert Einstein and the two events are sometimes celebrated together.

(from Wikipedia-Pi Day)

White Day

White Day is a day celebrated in Japan on March 14, one month after Valentine's Day. It is also observed in South Korea and Taiwan.

(from Wikipedia-White Day)

Mother's Day(UK)

The modern Mother's Day is celebrated on various days in many parts of the world, often in May, as a day to honour mothers and motherhood.

(from Wikipedia-Mother's Day)

Therapy

Lately I have been trying to search solutions to solve my emptyness of heart. I catched every chance to make change. I hope I'm moving on a road filled with blessings. So here is what I have done.

#1
I knew a few optimistic people in "Tai Ji Men" through my colleague. I got chances to attend their gathering and speach. They practice gigong (練氣功, a kind of Chinese martial arts), share life experiences each other, do a lot of spiritual works, and encourage people to do goodness. They are so energetic. I felt harmony and happiness surrounding them. I felt inspired by that joyful atmosphere. I think these good and kind people as angels to help me out of marsh in some way. For sure, that need my own efforts to work on.

I heard of some people's story there. Everyone joins the organization with one's own reason or purpose, some for physical issues and some for mental problems. I may examine my life and thoughts through their stories. I got an idea- sometimes we felt miserable just because we focus ourselves too much.

#2
This Sunday I took a one day tour with my classmate. We visited some scenic spots in Nothern Taiwan. It was a very relaxed package. We enjoyed the beautiful scenery, felt hakka culture and taste the local famous food.

Here is our route:Emei Lake →Beipu Old Street→Tashee Blooming Garden→Love Story Building→Dasi Old Street.
(峨眉湖-->北埔老街-->大溪花海農場-->大黑松小倆口愛情故事館-->大溪老街)


Tip for love: one eye opened and one eye closed (shot at love story building)

Plus, I got some introduction links for these areas.

Beipu, is very famous as its hakka culture, including its handcraft art, hakka food. (visit here and there if you are interested)

Tashee Blooming Garden, many Taiwanese Dramas were shot there.

And beside the blooming garden, we also visited Love Story Building, a lovely place.

Dasi Old Street, here.

The Lantern Festival of Y2010

Today is the final program and important day of Lunar New Year Festival, the Feast of Lantern, on the first full moon in a lunar year. Before went to see those beautiful arts, I went to see movie "Nine" with my good friend this evening. It's a really big case acted by several great actors, a story about the desire, career and marriage crisis on a movie director. The male chief actor, Daniel Day-Lewis, whose character in the film is likely a guy of my friends. I couldn't help to compare their behaviors while seeing the film, and wondering why people always learn to cherish what they own after they lose something.

Aroud 21:00 we stepped out the theater and walked along to Taipei City Hall and Sun Yat-sen Memorial Hall for seeing lantern arts. It was a beautiful and pleasant night. I felt glad I had been there. Here are some photos I shot to record this colorful night.

唐伯虎點秋香

水滸傳-武松打虎

西遊記

To Inspire Myself

These days I felt my mood stalled in the mud, hardly moved on. What happened? Actually no. There was nothing worse around me, but I lost energy and patience somehow. Some moments I got the thought to be frozen without feeling outside. Rationally I know such negative emotion shouldn't stay here too long.

A few days ago I read Katie's post "what inspires you?" Like a sound to wake me up. Currently to some extend, I almost stayed out of the real world. That doesn't mean I don't live in my ordinary days. I still did all my duties. I still acted as my role as usual. However, I felt empty inside. There are echos in my head, what I persue? what means to me? am I too anxious about those upcoming things and unrealized imagination?

Trying to improve the stalled status, I bought some flowers to cheer myself, I saw a lot of films to entend my narrow view point, I walked and walked for a long time just to observe people in the sreets. I read people's posts and hope to learn wisdom from them. I went to temples to wash off my hesitation toward my life, to search for strength, wisdom and peace.

People say "life can't be captured" and "life is too short to waste". It's so right, isn't it? But unavoidablly there are times and things we felt down and powerless.

How to reach the mood- "no border, just horizen, only freedom"? Is there a way to drop all the heavy loadings I bear? Well, there still need a lot of efforts to get myself out of the morass...

Lunar New Year Festival

We call this Lunar New Year is "the Year of the Golden Tiger". Everything regarding "Tigers" are seen as auspicious stuff. We wish this Golden Tiger will bring us great wealth and good fortune. As our traditions, most people go to temples for asking Buddha and God bless us a happy, lucky and prosperous year. So that at the Lunar New Year's Day, we went some temples without exception. We saw people crowded everywhereHere one thing deserved to be mentioned, the Lunar New Year's Day was also Valentine's Day, February 14th. According to the news report, it had been fifty years since these two festivals were at the same date. So we also asked the God who unites persons in marriage for a good fate at the New Year's Day.

There are many traditions in Lunar New Year Festival. We paste new spring couplets on our house. Family reunion dinner is held on Lunar New Year's Eve. Children receive red packets from their parents and elders. People say "Gung-Shi-Fa-Tsai" (means congretulations and wealth) each other.

The second day of the Lunar New Year Festival, married daughters will return to their parents' home. As usual, my sisters' families were all back at that day. Since my mom was still in recovery from her surgery, so I had to cook some dishes for treat. Regretfully I am really not good at such housework, I can see that they must have endured my bad cooking a lot and hardly complained a word.

Today is the fifth day of this festival, is the birthday of the God of Wealth. We also have trational ceremony on worship.

All of these traditions seem to be so religious. People believe the intengible power and usually search for their peace and comforts through these ceremonies.

Due to my duties on worship as the eldest child of my family, I almost stayed home and saw videos during my leisure time. I enjoyed the slow tempos very much. I waked up without alarm rings. I ate a great deal during holidays. But I had to admit there were sometimes buzy and I felt a bit impatient.

The weather wasn't good during the holidays. It has being cold and rainy since the second day of the lunar new year. I choose to be a dweller at home. I would rather stay in the warm blanket than go outdoors.

Learn From Movies

Today I stayed home and saw two movies, 'Hachi' and 'Where the wild things are'.

The first movie was 'Hachi', an Akita dog story. The movie was reproduced from a Japanese movie, a true story, talked about a loyal dog waited his master back home at the train station for 9 years. This touching story really earned my tears very much. It led me to think about 'the definition of loyalty' on the relationship of our families, friends and career.

I wondered how many people among us could play as a loyal role to others all along our life? We human beings are so easily tempted by materials and outer things. What power can make us as loyal and faithful as the spirit of Hachi?

The second movie was 'where the wild things are', a story about the adventure of a clever child after a quarrel with his mother. It's a creative movie and filled with abundent emotions. As I gooled for the introduction of this movie, I just knew it was produced from a children's book, a painting book. Wow! How amazing to make them vivid in the movie!

The boy, Max, grew mature through this experience. I think many of us are as same as Max, 'wisdom grows with experience'. We learn the tips of success from our failures. We become considerate because of understanding each other. We know to cherish after we lose something. Anyway, it's never too late to learn, isn't it?

Health Care

Today my mom was operated a "percutaneous coronary intervention" due to her coronary heart disease. This was her second time to experience such operation. I took my annual leave for taking care of her. Regardless that I was told such operation is very simple in today's medical technology, I still got upset more or less. It took about 3 hours and had been operated very successfully this morning.

Most people in sickness are needy and impatient. It's indeed a good timing to test my patience and train myself in a good temper. Sometimes I couldn't help to think, how will I be when I grow as old as my mom's age? Will I be so needy then? Will there be someone standing by me? However, I would rather to be the healthy one to take care of others.

I really don't like to go to hospital. To be more precisely, I am afraid of that. I think the main reason is I am afraid to see those people suffered by illness and accidence, and so many separations between loved ones in life or death occuring there. I know those are parts of our life and we might have to experience that someday, but I still can't overcome such feeling.

These days I heard of some friends and some friends' relatives got sick or uncomfortable. I also heard that some of them had worked too hard to ignore their red signals on health. Though I'm not a good advisor on health, I still want to remind of them- "Health is the best wealth". As you might be told that " While there is life, there is hope." I wish you may take good care on your health while you "enjoying" your works.

Harvest From My Trip

The first working day after my trip, there was non-stop running in my head, about the unfinished job, about the people I met there, and about all the things I experienced during my trip. Actually I am not so brave to face every sigle departure, but I think that's what we called " LIFE". When will we meet together next time? Could it be possible to be scheduled as our plans? Well...I bet we all know well the answer. As the age being added year by year, my heart seems more easily to be moved.

Regular visit my auditee once a year, I knew a lot of kind, smart, hospitable friends during my fieldwork. My appreciations are more than words. Without their full supports and precious time, my job would be an impossible mission. Every year I visit them, like to see my long time friends if they got any changed. It's a pity this time I heard of some friends resigned from these companies, so I hadn't the chance to see them again in this trip. Even I don't like the feeling, but this reality I used to say that's fate. If we have fate, we would meet again someday.

The important lesson of relationship reconstruction in these days is still pending. I think I had done my best to express my concern and feelings, but no response and surprise happened till the last minute, no one sigle thing of my imagination ever realized. However, I still feel happy we had broken the silence of communication, and keep the faith on the power of a true heart.

Now I feel a bit confused...Is this the destination? Perhaps no answer is also a kind of answers.

Who said time can tell everything? So far I haven't seen anything about my question. Anyway, as for how the future will go on, I will hand it over to God. Some people might stay longer in my life, some don't. So my simple thinking is just to make every pleasant moments to become my joyful memories in my rest life.

Lesson Of Growing Mature

Finally I got a chance to connect to internet on weekend during this trip. Traveling from Melaka to Jakarta, the internet connection are not free in hotels. For saving the cost, we have been staying away from internet world for two weeks, and only concentrated our time on the fieldwork.

I have a major mission and lesson to work out in this trip, and it's kind of tough for me so far. I think I have been tring my best to act my role, but still not good enough. Before this trip, I spent a long time for listening my heart, for thinking the better way to face my issues inside, for assuming many kinds of scenarios and oppertunities.

These days I felt some frozen relationship starting melted. It's a good sign for developing a new relationship, for reconstructing new basis of understanding. I believe the good will and true heart can soften everything and generate good interaction between people. Though I have no idea how will it end at the last moment, but I do hope there could be a good ending.

Some questions probably won't have answers till the end. And it seems no more important for the present moment. The only one thing I can make sure is, either good or bad fate we might experience, it would make us getting maturer and stronger in our life.

(Recorded in Sahid Jaya Hotel, Jakarta)

Ready to Meet Challenges

Finished packing my luggage, I am ready to fly for my first business trip of 2010. There will be two stops in the coming 3 weeks. This time I have one excellent colleague being my company. I knew she got a bit nervouse since we need to audit and read documents in English for our projects. I wish I may try my best to be a good partner to release her pressure.

Everything seemed smooth these days except the breakdown of my computer two days ago. Some good signs made me fell peaceful. I got a lot of supports from many colleagues and friends as if I was empowered to be a superman.

I know it will be tougher than my last visit with a series of challenges. Here wish us every good luck and have a pleasant trip for the coming new projects~

Blooming Everywhere

Today is the first working day of 2010. A brand new opening and the first post of 2010. Though having been busy the whole day long, I felt harmonious inside. An ordinary day, no news, no surprise. That I would call a good day.

Yesterday I took bus and passed by Daan Park. I saw there was a flowershow and suddenly got off the bus by a sudden impulse. I am glad to drop by the park and saw a lot of great and creative flower arts, especially in such cold weather. The colorful flowers always bring me a delight mood. Just took some photos and plus a soft song for sharing what I enjoyed there.
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Music: Japanese song and singer-日劇 溫柔時刻 主題曲 平原綾香_明日