Outing to Upstream Walking

Last weekend I had a brand new experience for outing-upstream walking. I thought it should be an easy tour but actually not. It was a tough challenge for me. I couldn't relax in the steram while floating. Since I almost can't swim, I still felt afraid while walking in the deeper water areas even I had worn a life vest. However, it was really an unforgettable memory in my life.

For a long time I couldn't conquer my fear in the water. I felt suffocated when my body against the water pressure. I remembered I attended the swimming course in my school days. I was shouted by the coach many times and asked me " where were you going" since I couldn't relax and swam straightly.

I didn't attend the second day of this outing after experienced the previous tough schedule. I simply sat beside the beautiful stream, chatting with some friends and watching the kids playing and jumping. I envied those little good swimmers. They looked so naturally and enjoyable.

At the end of July, two staffs resigned. The same reasons of their resignation was they didn't want to do auditing through their whole life. Well, I admired their courage to quit. I think I won't have their determination even if I were in their age. I will bless them to meet their ideal career.

I am thinking that life is like swimming. It needs balance all the time. Once we lost the balance, we would feel uncomfortable and even sunk by the pressure from all aspects of life. For me to keep a balanced life is a constantly learning course as same as swimming.

SPA Program on Body and Soul

After a whole week of conducting audit in our factory, I decided to take a good rest in last weekend. I became material in some ways. I went shopping and had a good meal. Moreover, yesterday I had a SPA program. Compared with the programs I ever had in Bali and China, that was another fresh experience for me. I felt relaxed to be served as a queen in my country.

I had kept finding ways to balance my life for a long time. I want to enjoy the real life. I told myself to treat myself kindly. I take every chance for trips with my old friends. I practice Qi-gong healing my body and soul. I would like to explore myself to see how much I can do and how far I may go.

Unavoidablely there are some nights I feel lonely and empty. I still think about the love I lost and couldn't figure it out why. Yes, I might too persist in that relationship, but that doesn't mean I don't step out of my room. I believe good wills would attract good people and positive energy. I believe everything is possible once I try my best. I think I am practicing to live more in the moment.

SET FREE

I had a bicycle trip last weekend to eastern Taiwan, Hwalian. I had rode about 29 miles in two days. For me, it's kind of a challenge to myself. I ever had the thought to abandon in transit, but I kept going on by my will till the last minute. And, I am glad I had finished the whole route. While riding on the country road, I felt so free, like every unwelcome stuff behind of me. That was extremely hot and I got tanned on my skin as a harvest.

When did you set yourself free from your busy days last? My lately life seems blindly busy and busy. I couldn't proceed my scheduled works by unexpected interruptions every working day. That caused me to keep working during my weekends. Actually I can't complain any more since people around look my job as a great one. Even I thought several times to drop my current duties, I am still here. I didn't mean I don't like my job, but I truely hate to be bound by any position or title. I think it's too pressured for me to hand over.

Yesterday, July 3, was the first anniversary for my blog. Here I have to confess I get tired and ingore to maintain it these days. I felt stalled to feel, think and write. Maybe I was burn by the heavy sun. I must pick up my energy like my fighting spirit on riding bicycles.

Why Bothering?

I had a few experiences in the past week. Some awful, some sad and some pleasant. These days made me exhausted not in my physical body but in my spirit.

Event #1, funeral
I attended a funeral for my aunt. At the end of that day, a thought came acrossed my mind, no matter how our beautiful days or hard days ever existed, all lives will be ended at the same destination, sooner or later. And then I started to think my issues,
What I have been searching for? What's my mission in this life?
Am I moving on the right way toward my destination?
When should I drop my persistence if I lost my faith on the way I chosed?
Well...the thing really gave me a strike on my head. I don't have the right answers about the above issues. But I try to tak a different look when I met unpleasant things.

Event#2, shortage of human resources
I was asked to compromise on the job assignment for one of my staffs, though I had tried to state how we pull our resources among projects. I felt much pressured and offended by the in-charge of the operating unit. I tried to settle the different view points between us but failed. No good communication but only one-way listening.
Finally I supposed his behavior probably due to the pressure from his management, so we ended the conversation. I'm not good at dealing such argument. I hate to wear a mask in front of people.
However, for the good sake of my staff to avoid him isolated by the group where he dedicates, I need to adjust my plan for the following projects. Anyway, a right decision is not eaqual to a good decision. Sometimes we have to give up the current "benefit" to achieve the long term "profit".

Event#3, a trip of pumpkin tunnel and water show
Yesterday was a hot weekend. The sun crazily danced during the day time. I joined a trip with my classmate to visit the pumpkin tunnels and water show. Except the trip route was not well arranged, that was a fresh experience for me.

明德水庫 水舞秀 Water Show

苗栗造橋金瓜傳奇-南瓜隧道 Pumpkin Tunnel

Relaxation

I'm home, staying at my small nest. The first weekend after my trip was rainy and rainy. I felt tired, so I stayed home and saw movies for the whole weekend.

Actually I feel so stuck. I think a lots but hardly to write down. Most of my thoughts are illogically. I feel heavy on my sholders. I know there are many tasks waiting for me, but I leave them all outstanding there.

All I want to do is doing nothing. Maybe you couldn't understand my style. But that's I called relaxation and the way to set myeslf free, like recharging the battery. Now come to my last program- some wine for myself.